One of the worst feelings in the world is feeling lost. My God, it's one of the worst feelings to experience, and it comes with a great deal of heaviness, sadness, and confusion. I haven't encountered many situations where I've felt lost, but I was lost as hell when I did! It sucks when you're unclear about which direction to go in or which decision to make; often, many of us opt to do nothing for fear of making the wrong decision. We will stand in the same spot, paralyzed with fear, and do nothing, and guess what? Nothing will happen! The good news is to be found; sometimes, you must be lost.
I had no idea what it felt like to be found if I hadn't felt lost. There's duality in all things, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to experience both sides of the scale, even when it hurts. When the scale is down, I swear it feels unbearable and sometimes indescribable. There were many times I literally left like I was going to die for fear of acknowledging the emotions in my body. It's like a ton of bricks stacked up on your shoulders and a million in your stomach. It's heavy, and the shit is real. It's pressure, and the pressure will make you feel. Like most humans, when the pressure was on, I would do EVERYTHING to distract myself from what I was feeling. The thought of facing it was just too risky. The unknown seemed too grim and dark, and I didn't know what was on the other side.
I struggled for a while with the idea of allowing myself to experience safety and security, not to mention wholeness. We're so used to brokenness; we don't even know how to accept wholeness. Accepting wholeness comes with accepting your worth. When that scale went up, I knew it was time for me to accept everything, and I mean EVERYTHING that was inherently mine!
Now, I appreciate the moments I experienced feeling lost, which helped me appreciate where I am. I'm stronger, wiser, and much more equipped to face it again if I had to. Self-reflection, introspection, and transparency are necessary characteristics to assist us in being honest with ourselves. Many people complain about feeling lost but act as if they aren't trying to be found, which may be the case for some. Often, we get lost because we go outside of ourselves, looking for things and people to make us feel better or give us something we refuse to give ourselves.
Furthermore, many of us get lost because we deviate from our own lane, trying to follow someone else's. We take several detours, chauffer people around, allow others to drive our cars, get the car stolen 😂 (because we’re off course), and crash a few times; and some wonder why they’re lost. I'm literally laughing right now because it's so true. Of course, regardless of the outcome, there are always lessons to be learned; however, some lessons are avoidable. With that being said, "Stay in your own damn lane!" Staying in your lane will hopefully lead you back home to yourself, and at that point, you can say you are safe and sound. You will feel safe and sound, but most importantly, you will know you are safe and sound. We become safe and sound in our bodies, minds, and souls when we acknowledge the inner presence and align with it. Learn to follow and trust your soul, it knows the way!
As for me, I've been found and marked safe! I hope you will find your way home. It’s safe! Love lives here…..
You're worthy!
As always, the divine in me recognizes the divine in you!
-Keyanna
"It's okay to get lost every once in a while, sometimes getting lost is how we find ourselves." -Robert Tew